Dear Tabitha,

It’s been exactly 1 year that you’ve been gone. They say that time eases all pain, but time has been no friend of mine. I don’t miss you any less, I don’t wish to talk to you any less, and I don’t hurt any less. I know you wouldn’t want that for me or anyone. You’d want me to smile, and celebrate your life. I try, but it’s so hard. I sometimes want to be able to talk to you, like when something happens or I’m excited about something I’ll think about you. I’ll think to myself “I can’t wait to tell Tabitha.” But you aren’t there, I can’t tell you. I do take some comfort in believing that you are around us. I have to believe that. It’s the only way I can deal with it. I miss knowing that you would be there if I needed a shoulder to cry on. I took that for granted so much. I hope you knew how much I appreciated you, and how much I valued you as a friend and a human being. I wish I could have told you more often, because now I don’t know if I told you enough. I don’t know if you knew just how much you meant to me. You were loved, and still are Tabitha. Those who knew you, the real you, couldn’t help but love you. I loved you for your honesty, your intergrity, and your lack of shame. I loved how I could tell you anything in the world and you wouldn’t judge me. I could always count on you to tell me exactly what you thought and not sugarcoat it. I have never before or since known another person like you, and I probably never will. You were one of a kind, Tabitha Lynn Bouchard. This world is a better place for having been blessed with your presence, and I am a better person for having known you. I will always love you. Always.

Your Friend,

Angela

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Comment by Julie

2008-07-24 22:31:50

Aww *HUGS* people that special should never be forgotten, but I hope the pain of losing her gets lighter. Maybe a year is not enough, but soon.

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