Just A Quickie
May 30th, 2008 8 Comments»Wordcount: 366
I thought I’d do a quick update before I get my youngin up and get him off to school. I have a doctor’s appointment today, so I’ll probably be out for a bit this morning. I didn’t sleep too well last night, mostly cause I was in pain, and then going back and forth with the ex didn’t help. I guess I did realize something though, and it’s something I kind of knew all along but was too chicken shit to deal with. The something I realize is that moving on is freaking hard. I mean when you are accustomed to something, whether it be good or bad, you get into some sort of “comfort zone” with it. I know, and have known, that this relationship was detrimental to my mental well-being, but I had grown used to it I think. I mean, it’s all I’ve known for so long, so of course it’s hard to pick myself up and start over. I’ll do my best though, because I know deep down I have to. That’s not to say that I don’t still care for him and wish him all the best. I hope that he finds what he’s looking for in life, because obviously he was not happy with me. You don’t treat someone that you are happy with like dirt, yanno? I will admit I’m a bit bitter about certain things, and I know I have to get over that in order to move on.
I considered looking for a rebound relationship, but that wouldn’t do me any good. I don’t want to become that person. The one who has to have a boyfriend, who cannot be alone. I do want to “play the field” so to speak. I want to meet new people, have a little fun, and maybe eventually I’ll find what I have been missing all along. Who knows.
Keep in mind, I’m extremely bipolar and my mood and mind changes frequently. Ask me in an hour if I still wish him the best, and my answer might be totally different. :confused:
Anyway, I gotta get the kiddo up and get his lunch packed. He’s got a field trip today.
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I know moving on is hard, and you’re right, even if something sucks, you can get accustomed to it and get comfortable with it. We humans can adjust to anything with time. I mean, how many cases on the news have we heard of kidnapped victims wanting to go back to their kidnapper, because that’s what they were used to and comfortable with?! But anyway, you’re a strong woman and I know you can move on and get better. I’m here for you too, you know that. If you need someone to talk to or go have a ladie’s night out, just holler. I’m only on the other side of Houston.
How right you are. Humans can adjust to anything. It’s almost scary. Thank you, Julie. I really appreciate that.
Well, good luck with everything. I’m sure in time you’ll meet someone really great, but maybe what you need is to really get out there and meet lots of people like you said.
That’s exactly what I need to do. I’m not going to go “looking” but I wanna just have a good time, and be happy.
Changing the status quo has always been hard. I hope moving on will get better for you, and will bring great things as well.
Happy weekend, Angela!
I hope it gets better for me, too. It’s really difficult.
It’s funny cause I was just about to go to your website and read your latest posts.
Happy weekend to you too, Sasha.
im going through the same thing lovely.
we are in this together! we dont need no man!
I felt that way my when daughter’s father and I broke up. It’s almost been a year and I still think that I love him and want him to come home but I know that it wouldn’t be good for me and he would just go back to treating me like dirt. Hopefully you’ll have fun playing the field